Friday, July 08, 2011 ♥
Last posted@7/08/2011 09:58:00 AM
The Ending is no where like the Start
And so we're coming to the end of Year 3 and some of my friends are graduating.
Looking back at the start, it is nothing like what it is now.
You are having your commencement today.
And unlike how we started this Uni journey together we won't have the luxury of graduating together.
I'm so happy for you & I'd like to tell you all the best in your future wherever you may be.
Oh so corny but I wish I could tell that to you face to face.
& maybe take a pic with you in your graduation gown.
But that's not going to happen cos maybe in your mind you think that I wouldn't want to be there and in my mind i'm thinking you wouldn't want for me to trigger anything.
And so we will just get through the day like how we get through any other.
Okay maybe I'm being too sentimental about life indeed.
But anyhow, I guess somethings, some feelings will just be overlooked for the better.
Cos I've learnt that the hard way is the only way to get through with it.
And painful or not, we chose these paths and that's how the cookie crumbles.
I'm happy now with my new life and it's sth I shld be proud of.
I've made being happy too much like a crime and I got too used to being sad, emo and dejected about life because of the people who were killing me inside.
Yes I loved them enough to let them affect me and I made a stand for myself.
I look back and I still feel a tinge of sadness now and then.
I look back and I still miss them because that's just how sentimental I am no matter what they've done to me.
But these are lessons learnt.
Indeed the people I've hung out with in Uni have changed tremendously over the years.
& I'm happy for those that mattered enough to stick arnd and maybe just a little jaded about those that didn't. But everything happens for a reason, really.
So okay I'm rambling, but it's a real wonder how over this 3 years, things have changed so much. So many things have happened and this is where I am now.
I dont know why I'm spending my last official summer hols doing an internship.
3 more weeks and it'll all be over.
I'll be getting a single room for hall next year.
Def gonna miss having Vian as my roomie but maybe this me-time will make up for some good reflection perhaps.
And the decision to scrap my FYP and just get through this damn last year is made with regret but let's just get over and done with this.
And I'm so thankful to the dear boy for walking through this with me, not judging me out rightly, and keeping the faith. I look forward to this journey with you and whatever comes out way in time to come, let's just make the best of it now because you taught me what it is to love again and that is something I never thought I could do.
Okay, Happy Graduation my friends.
♥ with love, Evonowono
